Welcome outofthelionsden glad to have you here with us. It is very rough losing your family members who are still in. We're going thru the same thing ourselves right now. My mom & siblings haven't talked to me since Dec and is shunning us. My husband's mother, ran to the elders hollering 'apostates' because hubby dared to show his non-jw brother some pictures hidden within the WT literature.
But breathe, relax. It does get easier. The niggling doubts that you are doing the right thing are natural and it's a side effect of the mind-control they have put us thru all these years.
Peace to you and your family
NE [Hubby is Brother of the Hawk & daughter is Gojira]